when you let in love
For so long…
You’ve kept your heart guarded, you promised yourself that you were going to work on you. You were going to work on being stronger because that’s what your kids needed.
You have stayed away from letting other people “in”, even friends because at the end of the day you can really only count on yourself – and even then you often let yourself down.
You did most things alone for long enough that the ache is now dull enough to ignore.
You told yourself that it’s easier because exposing yourself to possible hurt and harm again isn’t worth it. Being loved, that is, is too dangerous.
You became used to sleeping alone; though you hate it. It’s something you’ve trained yourself to become numb to. Waking up alone, going to sleep alone. Waking up in the middle of the night and having to go back to sleep alone.
So when it crept in…
You were not expecting it.
You didn’t notice.
It wasn’t the first time these questions were whispered; do you want to keep being numb? Do you want to keep going without?
the answer this time though, surprisingly – No.
Love is not designed for the cynical.
Let it happen.